picking up pieces
Alright...getting my focus on. I packed EVERYTHING today...with frequent breaks to lay on a heating pad. I never realized how strange it is to pack your whole life into two suitcases; deciding necessity from non-necessity. I have a larger peace today and a better focus, let's do this thing.
focus
SO.. things are really weird. I saw the doctor today, I have a torn ligament and a couple of pulled muscles, but nothing major. I'm good to go. Yesterday I was so confused and frustrated with God- but things make a little bit more sense today. I'm seeing how God is taking crappy situations and totally turning them into good.
I don't feel prepared mentally, emotionally or spiritually to take off for twelve months from all that I know to be secure and stable and to totally figure things out for myself. This week has been one test after another. I have no clue what lies ahead, it's exciting and scary all at the same time. I really need God and I really need you to pray for me.
Check out http://www.streethope.org/
this is the ministry where I will be placed with for the year
I fly out the 11th... get a hold of me before then and we'll spend time together..
City of Fredericton:Learn to Drive!!!
got hit by a drunk driver at one of the worst intersections in the city last night/this morning (1 am)...wrecked my dad's car...BAaaaaaaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
class of 2008...dedicated to one I love
Going to miss you JJ... thanks for being an awesome friend and sister!
a few random thoughts
Emma (Not Alone) Jason Upton
Don't be afraid baby don't you cry
Daddy's here it'll be all right
You're not alone you're not alone
Don't be afraid when you're cold at night
I will keep you warm, I will hold you tight
You're not alone you're not alone
Look beyond the window there
To the sky above to the open air
Look beyond what you can see
Close your eyes and just believe
The lion roars and the lamb lays down
They live together in a whole new town
They're calling me and they're calling you
From the cold hard facts that we're on our own
To the age old truth that we're not alone
Don't be afraid when you scrap your knee
I've got a bandaid waiting a kiss for free
You're not alone you're not alone
Don't be afraid of your blind belief
Because the more you fly the more you'll see
You're not alone you're not alone
Don't be afraid little warrior bride
Your victory's on the other side
You're not alone you're not alone
I'm finally home.. at least for two weeks. Time to reflect...
This is the song I am choosing to reflect on my summer of ministry. I felt like God was soo far away all summer and I consistently had to remind myself that He hadn't given up on me. This season (or whatever you wanna call it) stirred me to push in a little harder... when God seemed quiet, it made me want to pray harder and listen more attentively to find God. "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all of your heart." I don't think God had distanced himself, I believe He was stirring me to listen harder for the purpose of refining me and growing greater discipline. When I got home this afternoon, I was unpacking some of my things and I began to sing along to a CD I had playing. I had to stop unpacking and just soak for a bit. God's presence was so good ... I seriously said, "God where have you been all summer?" This Jason Upton song then came on.. and God starting downloading to my heart. I felt like God was saying to me that I need to start walking by faith and not by sight, that I need to live like He is with me all the time, because He is. I also felt like God was saying that this summer was also preparation for what is to come..trusting and walking by faith. So here I am, two weeks from flying to Victoria to do a 12 month internship. I don't have a church out there and I don't know anyone. "Look beyond the window there, to the sky above to the open air, look beyond what you can see, close your eyes and just believe....You're not alone you're not alone." Just trust....
Erin Tracy Stevenson looks after the pool
Last Monday night the male staff that I work with planned a female staff appreciation night. The night included sailing down the Saint John River and eating snacks prepared by the boys. Upon arriving at our destination (which was the new bridge that crosses the Saint John River)- we were instructed to climb a ladder onto a flat platform where benches and glowsticks had been set up. We enjoyed entertainment for the next hour and very tasty cheesecake! Later we had to sail back up the river in a very nasty thunder storm!
These pictures were taken with me hanging over the platform while the rest of the girls were climbing up the ladder- that's why they're kinda sketchy. I was scared that I might drop my camera into the river. If you fell off the ladder you fell into the river. It was an excellent night had by all.
Family photo day
My whole family was home this afternoon..it doesn't happen very often so my mum decided that before I go to Victoria and before my brother heads to Montreal for the year that she would snap some photos of us. I questioned if I actually had any blood relation to my brothers after my older brother threatened to kill me and threw me out of the car. It was an interesting experience. Here's a product of the afternoon.
